Dear Allyssa — and dear fellow traveler
This letter answers the video Jesus is the answer — my full testimony by Allyssa Marie. It is written to confirm and to strengthen — a testimony this honest deserves to have the Scriptures laid open beside it, so that she and everyone who watched can see that what she lived through is exactly what the Bible says would happen. It is written to two readers at once: to Allyssa personally, and to you who watched her and recognized your own story in hers. Every quotation from the video is word-for-word, and every Scripture is quoted in full from the World English Bible.
Dear Allyssa — and dear fellow traveler,
I watched your testimony and then read every word of it again in transcript. You should know what you have done: you have put a weapon into the hands of everyone who hears you.
Revelation 12:11, WEBThey overcame him because of the Lamb's blood, and because of the word of their testimony. They didn't love their life, even to death.
The blood of the Lamb — and the word of their testimony. Heaven names your nine typed pages as one of the two things that overcome the enemy. That is why it cost you tears to record, and that is why it was worth it.
The dots that never connected — and why they couldn't
I did get confirmed in the Catholic church while I was growing up. I did do all of that, but I didn't really understand the purpose of it. I didn't know why I had to do this. I understood that God loved me, that Jesus loves me, but the dots never connected for me. It never made sense. It felt like a history lesson. I was just pretty much doing it because my mom said that I had to. I just never had a relationship with Jesus.— Allyssa Marie, Jesus is the answer — my full testimony
You were gracious about this in the video — you said it was nobody's fault. Your grace honors you, and toward your family it is exactly right: they gave you what they had been given, and God used even the seed of it. But dear sister, Scripture is less gentle than you were about the system — because what you lived has a name, and it is ancient. Jesus met a whole religious establishment that had the Scriptures, the ceremonies, the confirmations — everything except Himself:
John 5:39-40, WEB"You search the Scriptures, because you think that in them you have eternal life; and these are they which testify about me. Yet you will not come to me, that you may have life.
A church can hand a child every sacrament and still never hand her the Son. You were baptized before you could believe, catechized before you could ask, confirmed before anything had been confirmed in you — and the result was precisely what you said: a history lesson. Jesus diagnosed the mechanism:
Mark 7:7-9, WEBBut in vain do they worship me, Teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.' "For you set aside the commandment of God, and hold tightly to the tradition of men — the washing of pitchers and cups, and you do many other such things." He said to them, "Full well do you reject the commandment of God, that you may keep your tradition.
"Making void the word of God by your tradition" (Mark 7:13) — that is the sharp edge, and it must be said plainly, because your viewers include people still sitting where you sat, doing what they are told, feeling nothing connect, and concluding that they are the problem. They are not. The system that puts ceremonies, a priesthood, and a queue of mediators between a soul and the Savior is the problem, because God's word says there is no queue:
First Timothy 2:5, WEBFor there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus,
One Mediator. Not a system, not a saint, not a sacrament schedule — a Person, and eternal life is knowing Him: "This is eternal life, that they should know you, the only true God, and him whom you sent, Jesus Christ" (John 17:3). There is a full study of how that system was built and where it departs from the Scriptures — chapter by chapter, from "One Mediator" to "Come Out, and Come Home": When Tradition Took the Throne. Allyssa, your testimony is that book lived out in one life.
The night it finally clicked
I'm realizing that's why all this time nothing was working — because I hadn't truly said with my heart, "I believe in you, Jesus, and I repent for my sins."— Allyssa Marie, Jesus is the answer — my full testimony
You discovered this live, on camera, mid-testimony — and it is textbook Paul. Watch how exactly your realization matches his words:
Romans 10:9-10, WEBthat if you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
With the heart — the very word you reached for. Years of Bibles owned and services attended, and salvation waited for one heart-confession. And what you said next — "He is the one who took my sin on that cross and washed me white. He washed me clean" — is not a metaphor you invented. It is the church's oldest before-and-after, written to people who had lived your exact list:
First Corinthians 6:11, WEBSuch were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God.
Such were some of you. Past tense. That verse sits at the end of a list that includes the sexually immoral, the drunkards, the greedy — your history and mine — and it slams the door on all of it with one word: were.
What you called a soul tie, Scripture calls one flesh
Because I had such a soul tie. It was just something that was so hard for us to walk away from.— Allyssa Marie, Jesus is the answer — my full testimony
Your instinct here is more biblical than you may know. Scripture gives the thing you felt its real name:
First Corinthians 6:16, WEBOr don't you know that he who is joined to a prostitute is one body? For, "The two," says he, "will become one flesh."
The union is real — Paul says the sexual act itself forges a one-flesh bond, covenant or no covenant. That is why walking away felt like tearing, not deciding: something had been joined. It is also why the Bible's counsel is not "manage it" but "Flee sexual immorality!" (First Corinthians 6:18) — you cannot negotiate with glue. And you drew one distinction in the video that many pastors never get right: shame is from the enemy, conviction is from God. Exactly so — conviction cuts clean and points home; shame crushes and points away. "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1). Even your harder saying — that God would not bless a life of deliberate sin — has a psalm behind it: "If I cherished sin in my heart, The Lord wouldn't have listened" (Psalms 66:18). And the freedom you testified to at the end of it all stands on the Son's own word: "If therefore the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed" (John 8:36).
The verse the Lord brought to your mind — you heard it right
A verse that the Lord had brought to my mind was that it's better to marry than to live in temptation and with lust.— Allyssa Marie, Jesus is the answer — my full testimony
Here is that verse, and notice its grammar:
First Corinthians 7:9, WEBBut if they don't have self-control, let them marry. For it's better to marry than to burn.
In the Greek, "let them marry" is an aorist imperative — a command, not a reluctant permission. When you and Josh chose a swift, counseled, God-honoring marriage over a long engagement full of temptation, you were not cutting corners; you were obeying an apostle. And your ox-and-yoke explanation of being unequally yoked (Second Corinthians 6:14) — two animals pulling at different speeds, ruining the furrow — is precisely the picture the Greek word paints. You taught it correctly, and you lived its cost before you taught it. There is a full study of what Scripture actually says about marriage — including a whole chapter on "Better to Marry Than to Burn": The Case for Marriage.
Identity, fear — and one guard-rail from a friend
You are who Jesus Christ says you are. You are a new creation in Him. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and you are here for a purpose.— Allyssa Marie, Jesus is the answer — my full testimony
Amen — "if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation" (Second Corinthians 5:17). You are right that a diagnosis must never become an identity, and you proved it: the world told you BPD had no solution, and Christ dissolved what the label called permanent. You quoted the right sword — "For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control" (Second Timothy 1:7) — and John supplies its twin:
First John 4:18, WEBThere is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
Fear is not cast out by effort but by love — which is why your testimony of receiving His love is itself the cure you are walking in. Now the guard-rail, spoken gently because some of your viewers are fragile: hold on to "the label is not my identity" with both hands — but be careful with "medication never helps," because Scripture does not say that. Jesus Himself said, "Those who are healthy have no need for a physician, but those who are sick do" (Matthew 9:12) — He honored physicians, Luke the beloved doctor wrote a third of the New Testament, and Paul prescribed a remedy to Timothy. God heals through His word, through prayer, and through means — and using means is not unbelief. So to the viewer under care: renounce the label as your identity today, and change your treatment only with prayer, counsel, and your physician — not from a video, mine or anyone's. That guard-rail protects the very freedom Allyssa is testifying to.
One gift still on the table
Allyssa, you told us you were baptized as an infant — before you could believe, before the dots connected. And in your whole beautiful testimony, one thing never appears: baptism upon your own faith. Now that you believe with your heart and confess with your mouth, the oldest invitation in the church is addressed to you personally:
Mark 16:16, WEBHe who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who disbelieves will be condemned.
Believes — then is baptized. That order is everywhere in Scripture: "Repent, and be baptized, everyone of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins" (Acts 2:38). Water sprinkled on an infant who could not yet say yes is not what those verses describe; the believer's baptism is faith's own wedding garment, your public "yes" to the One who washed you. I say this not as critique but as a gift left on the table with your name on it — you and Josh could receive it together. Two studies walk through exactly this, verse by verse: Through the Waters and Believe and Be Baptized.
To you who watched
Allyssa ended where every true testimony ends — with the door open for you: "Jesus wants you to come exactly as you are and lay it all at the foot of the cross." That is not sentiment; it is the Father's documented behavior:
Luke 15:20, WEB"He arose, and came to his father. But while he was still far off, his father saw him, and was moved with compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
The father ran. He did not wait for the speech, did not require the cleanup first — "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28). If her story is your story — the fear, the secret addiction, the religion that never connected — do tonight what she did: believe in your heart, confess with your mouth, and let Him carry it. I walked the same road from the other side of the ocean — the same secret bondage broken in 2012, the same God whose hand becomes visible only in the rearview mirror; the full story is told in Born Again.
And if tonight is your beginning — welcome, new believer. Here is the road, and it is short and open. First, be baptized on the faith you just confessed (Acts 2:38); do not park where Allyssa's story shows the parking lot is — decades of religion without the connection. Then seek Him — and expect to find, because that is His signed promise:
Jeremiah 29:13, WEBYou shall seek me, and find me, when you shall search for me with all your heart.
He is not hiding from you; He is "a rewarder of those who seek him" (Hebrews 11:6). Seek Him the way the first new believers did — "the apostles' teaching and fellowship, the breaking of bread, and prayer" (Acts 2:42): an open Bible daily (get one you understand, as Allyssa did), honest prayer, and believing friends — notice how God moved in her story almost every time through a Sarah, a Megan, a Maddie. Do not walk it alone. And when you begin to listen for His voice, I have written an open letter on exactly how Scripture teaches that: Speak, For Your Servant Hears.
And take her anchor verse with you — the one that held her when everything moved:
Proverbs 3:5-6, WEBTrust in Yahweh with all your heart, And don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, And he will direct your paths.
